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Mrs Crabtree is a good person... she doesn't like being online much. She is independent and wise in a very common-sense, Earthly way. She is wonderfluly ignorant of religion and theology, like an adult implicit atheist. She is independent and strong. I care about grand concepts, the eternality of thought, change and progress... I am Carl Sagan and the United Nations... Mrs Crabtree is the opposite. She cares about individual people, friends, the stability of peoples' everyday lives, and the importance of living good. She is the unit of the life, I am the overarching theory of life. My worst point is my misanthropy... her worst point is her stoicism. So, I get bored and socially confused when she talks to about trivial human matters, who-did-what-to-who, etc, and she gets bored and confused when I talk about lofty concepts like democracy, sociology, the big existential questions and the subtleties of Human emotion. On account of her not being online, I am afraid I either need to think of a 'codename' for her which is more personable than "Mrs Crabtree"... but what? She hasn't liked anything I have thought of, and doesn't care enough to think of anything for herself. Tags: adulthood, friends, kindness, marriage, misanthropy, niceness, relationships, stoicism
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Material things I miss: 1. Music / stereo / CDs 2. My car 3. My chair at my computer desk, at the same height, and not made of jelly like the wobbly wrong-height chairs we have here. 4. Broadband 5. My library Things I don't miss: 1. German mosquitos 2. Going to normal work People I miss: 1. Sam 2. Friends in general (with too many specific to mention). 3. My neighbours/neighbourhood friends where I live. 4. Ah ok, our 2 kittens. Tags: friends, materialism, relationships, work
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I've realized... Well, first of all I know I have many beautiful, intelligent, amazing and wonderful friends. I've realized that I haven't been grabbing these friends by the balls and pro-actively going out and having good times. My last years' resolutions, although heartilly inspiring, were not entirely fulfilled, mostly because I've set into stone my new career which is massively more important, but in general I done good. My single new years' resolution: Become a model of pro-active energy
Carpe Diem!!This means carpe diem baby! It means travelling to see my friends instead of leaving it to random events, which, however nice, are not frequent enough. It means making things happen more, instead of slowly seeping my talent into the world methodically and cautiously, I'm going to engage the world with a pro-active embrace, valuing my friends and loved ones as the heart of the Vexen empire; from which stems as always the roots of enlightenment, improvement, progressiveness and stability: Fuelled on love and the search for peace. This is the end of the gradual-influence, Mr. Nice Guy Vexen, and my Year of Fire, of You Will Hear From Me, especially socially. The problem with Nice Guy Vexen is that you never really knew what I wanted... from now on, from yesterday, I'm immediate, direct, therefore stronger in new ways. Vexen Version Three is dead! In some ways - personally, inside my life, introvertly, I AM pro-active and energetic... but, the Age of Fire is the age where the world changes and purges and old, traditional, stagnant, barriers break in order to form a world of change and no-messing-around, no chains-of-the-past. Long live VV4! Tags: friends, new years' resolutions, vexen
Current Mood:  lonely
Listening To: "Crash" by Big Electric Cat
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I have *very* limited contact with relatives and family, although we get on, we're all independent and scattered around the UK. But it *is* nice that some of them are online, and talk to me. And read my websites! As far as having a stereotypically non-straight image, and being a prominent (in my own little way) and open Satanist, they accept me well, and sometimes sit and talk to me about things honestly and openly. They do know that I am a sorted and stable person, which of course makes it much more likely that they'll accept my eccentric side! I'm happy to report back to them... let them know I'm doing OK, keep vaguely up to date with how they're going, some of my family have been through very hard times, and the recovery is very slow with many excursions. First theme: Relatives: Respect, minimalist but mature contat... and acceptence or at least mutual co-existence. I pull of this against-the-odds thing very well in my life! Special friends with whom I share similar childhood experiences serve to be the most relaxing sources of mutual counsel; and talking with people who understand help yourself understand and accept yourself more fully. Second theme: Thank you, special friends and lovers, warm souls who help me excersice my demons and keep them at full strength. And to all those laid back friends who simply accept me as I am. Oh I've lost track and I'm rambling... Live Journal is terrible for making people do that! Tags: friends, relatives
Current Mood:  cheerful
Listening To: Therapy - Screamanger
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