I'm not fit enough, I'm not fast enough, I don't type quick enough, I don't move from A to B as efficient as I could. I am a Demon of unstoppable will.
I'm pleased I know to relax and have fun, primarily, otherwise I'd end up in a sorry state. I make long term plans... this Vexen is not planning to burn out or lose his self deprecation... I think I walk a line between pure egoism and pure humbleness. World big... Vexen small. A squirrel might not be able to change the world, but within it's limited scope, it tries very hard and with utmost efficiency, meanwhile it does not compromise it's grace or emotion.
The nonsense above makes me recall the opening of an Electric Hellfire Club (industrial dance) song, "Prince of Darkness":
"I always spell Satan will a dollar sign,
If theres anything I want I just make it mine.
To walk the line between success and disaster,
to keep the favor of our Lord and Master"
"There is a demon in man that needs to be excersized, not exorcised" - Anton Lavey